on the walk

I often deride myself for having too little faith in the power of prayer.  It is hard for me to face again calling on God to act when it seems that many times God has not acted.

Yet even amidst my doubt I found new evidence that I fundamentally do believe in the power of prayer.

Here is my evidence: I don’t want to pray about my church’s capital campaign.

Just to be clear, I am on the staff of the church.  I believe in the centrality of the local church and this one that I serve is a particularly good one.

I believe in the goals of the campaign. I have been bragging to all my friends that it is so exciting to be a part of a church that has a campaign that is so outwardly focused and so ministry focused. (Very little of our funds are going toward bricks and mortar.  Most of our campaign goals are for other places and other churches.)

So I support the campaign, but I don’t want to pray about it for one very simple reason.  I know that if I pray about it, God will change my heart.  God will inspire me.  God will challenge me.  God will stretch me to sacrifice and give beyond what I want to give.

I sometimes feel like there really is only one prayer: “Not my will, but thine be done.”

I believe that God responds to prayer.  I know that I believe because I am afraid to pray.

on the walk

-Ethan

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